Self Improvement #1

In the scary movie of my life, we get to the final scene where the villain is about to be revealed. Cue the dramatic music, dum dum dummmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The 50,000 dollars Gucci mask is being unveiled and the villain this whole time is Me!!!!! Me probably with a scar on my face and maybe bangs, bangs scream bad gal!

Anyways since university, I started dealing with anxiety and bouts of depression, something that was a strange thing for me to deal with since I had such a naturally sunny disposition. It was then shady bang bang was created, my own worst enemy, which was me, evil me with bangs. I am someone till this day that is filled with determination, passion, enthusiasm and I kind of match to my own drum beat so I don't and have never really let other people bring me down except for this shady bang bang. She always brought me down.

Long story short shady bang bang was keeping me from growing up and being the me I have always wanted to be, a fashionable mother Theresa type with a food blog and restaurants. Anyways she dulled me down, whenever things were going well she will come and ruin it. I am making light of things but it is a complicated mess, but anyone that has battled with anxiety and depression would understand, don't need to lament the point.

As I am getting older, I was getting so tired of shady bang bang because shady bang bang was never part of the plan I had ever since I was a little girl growing up in Nigeria, whom till this day still share the same dreams. Shady bang bang was just this character that was brought in on season 16 and tried to ruin things. So enough was enough starting late in 2016 I decided I need to start truly, permanently start working on myself.

 So the one thing I can do to help fight these monsters is to be this awesome hero to my villainous shady bang bang side. To be Captain Mimi!!!!!!!!!!!! (I am not very creative with naming things).

I need to start slowly being this person I have always wanted to be, which is a person of action! Captain Mimi to the rescue!!!! For example, I have always wanted to start taking control of my body, eating healthier and exercising. Although I didn't really suffer from a horrible body image issue. I just never put any thought to myself which is not really a good thing either, I never felt I was anything great or anything horrible. But I wanted to take control of that and throw some positivity that way so I can have at least positive feelings about my body before shady bang bang comes and makes an issue about it, you know how she rolls. I suppose looking good may help one feel better.

But changing the way persons eat and exercising is more than a physical thing, it is actually this long arduous mental thing that when you can take control of cravings and discipline yourself to exercise it creates a better version of yourself mentally. I am needing of some strong positive mental energy if I want to go up against shady bang bang.

Ugh, look at all this blabbing I have just done. To bring home the point of this blog post and series I am creating is since I have begun to work on myself I have always wanted to do this but didn't make it official but now it is. Every month I am going to try to give up a bad habit or add a good habit. These habits are going to be little changes I have always wanted to make, some things that will make you go, you nasty, you don't even do that. Like this month's September 2017 habit which is to brush my teeth twice a day!  Yes, I do brush my teeth but just once in the morning but I don't always brush my teeth at night which is the most important time.

This is a habit  I need in my life cause I got cavities baby, I have a couple of fillers and one tooth pulled out. I really need to improve my dental hygiene. I know it is a simple habit but being disciplined and not lazy to brush my teeth at night to be one of those people is something I have always wanted to do. Being consistent about it instead of lazy. Yes right now it is Sept 10 not exactly the top of the month but I have already started this habit and hope that I will continue to be good about it.

Wish me Luck

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